Process

I'm so frustrated. I want to throw it all away- give it all up. I can't. I want to...but I can't bring myself to do it. It's like when you have a dog with caderacs in each eye (blind) and you know it'd be better if you killed it...but you can't bring yourself to do it. I'm irritated and I want it to stop. I know it won't unless I leave. If I get away from it all...then I'll be okay...I'll be better...but I can't leave.